Yesterday was a hard day.
Bickering kids who couldn't keep themselves from touching each other. School was not going well. Not our worst day, but definitely not our best. My husband was out of town and I was tired.
Telling the kids (
probably not so nicely) to STOP TOUCHING EACH OTHER for the 84th time that day put me over the edge. My good mood wasn't coming back. I tried, but each time someone whined, cried, or talked back, I let myself answer from a place of complete frustration.
I wasted almost an entire day with my sweet kids being frustrated by everything they did.
Later, I took a video of Kayla dancing in her recital dress that we picked up earlier in the evening, and posted it to Instagram with a short caption about the freedom that kids feel. We went inside for dinner, showers, and bedtime. Prayers with the kids were even a struggle. I just wanted the day to be over. Everyone needed to go to sleep so I could have some time alone.
I prayed for God to shut my mouth. I prayed for Him to speak in His kind way to the kids when I knew I couldn't. I prayed for Him to comfort them when I felt my compassion was low.
I sat on the couch with my phone. One of my new Instagram buds, Amber, from Let Love Invade, posted a quote that said "Give it to God and go to sleep."
Then I ate some ice cream, watched a cooking show and went to bed.
This morning I woke up thinking more about Kayla's video. All day today I have been thinking about how it can be so hard for me to relax just enjoy my kids. I took a pic of a frame in the video and posted it on FB.
Especially in the imperfection.